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In college. I met a guy. We became the best of friends flirted very close to dating each other but mutually decided to not take that extra step since we were both off to graduate school and pursuing different paths. We've stayed in touch very randomly - we see each other in passing at conferences (we are in the same field) and once or twice a year we email each other to say hello or to pass along some personal or professional news going on in our lives. I saw him earlier this year and I have to admit my heart still skipped a beat. I think about him all of the time and this last week he's constantly been on my mind. When we do see each other. I sense a spark between us but I haven't been willing to put forth the effort to do anything about it because... We are both married. I am happily married. I love my husband he is my best friend. We get along really well we have a daughter together and my life is really really good. I am not willing to throw it away for something that once was. He too is married - I think happily. They are unable to have any children and so whenever I hear from him he mentions my daughter in passing quite wistfully. Like I said. I am not willing to break up my marriage to pursue anything with him nor am I willing to be that other person who screws up someone else's marriage. But I cannot help but think to myself and wonder if he's the one who I let slip through my fingers. How do I get over this? I am kind of agonizing over this and while it isn't impacting my marriage at all. I don't want it eventually to do so. I can be contacted at anonymefi@yahoo com for further clarification. as someone nearing the age when many people go through this very same syndrome i'd say you need to recognize it as utterly a fantasy it is not real you also need to recognize it this fantasy as completely mundane and normal to experience he's not the one you argue with over the humdrum details of your life but he's also not the one who is there for you through thick and thin (hopefully) that man would be your husband if you want to get over it start imagining if your husband were fantasizing this way about some girl he loved and lost in college recognize how silly it would be to do something stupid and start focusing on the *reality* of this person as a potential fucker-up of your life should you pursue him there's nothing dumber than someone who pursues a fantasy when they get bored with their life partner. (provided of course that you are an ordinary monogamous couple poly people get to act out on these fantasies and use those actions to take out the sting and forbidden nature of this sort of game this has its own unique fucked-up-ness. YMMV)posted by at on November 30. 2007 [] No futher clarification necessary. We often feel attraction to multiple persons in our past and present despite promises that we have made. Usually sudden past deep attractions to others come up in our lives because something totally unrelated to the old flame is bothering us and we don't want to deal with or think about that thing. So we gin up a complicated unsolvable ten-years old a millon miles away itch because we would rather suffer that than deal with what is bothering us. We pick something as far as possible from actual solvable reality to keep our attention fixed. In short look at current local problems totally unrelated to the old flame and focus intently on them especially if they are something you don't want to think about. Lots of focused energy on that problem will lead to the other feelings going away presently posted by at on November 30. 2007 [] I don't agree with the above posters. They can't say who you're in love with. Only you can know that. I also don't agree with the "cut off all contact". You're obviously aware and self-aware and in control. Nothing's threatened. You're not here because you're afraid of doing something stupid. Feel pride that you can recognize your love for this man given your current situation. There are many people who'd fuck things up and many more who'd deny the love. Be happy and proud that you have a good marriage in spite of your feelings for this other man. As someone who's genuinely jealous of your situation (I once wrote. "Take away all that I deserve but give me five more minutes on the back of Beth's bike." and am not presently with anyone I love). I suggest you revel in what you're feeling and prayer it survives as long as you do. If it's as genuine as you suggest it'll bury us all. Kudos to you for who you are: a place where such emotions can flower and thrive posted by at on November 30. 2007 [] I once had a fantasy lover. We had known each other for almost all our lives but never united. The potential of him existed as a dream unrealized always just beyond my reach. In my imagination we were perfect. We could talk about anything. I trusted him absolutely he was always romantic and loving and my life was full and complete.. in my imagination. After decades fantasy became reality. We actually got together. Married. Suffered. Suffered some more. Separated. Divorced. Now we don't even speak and I'm none the worse for his total absence from my life both real and imaginary. Turns out my imagination was too good. I made him all up. The fantasy was much better unsatisfied. I wish I had kept it that way posted by at on November 30. 2007 [] I used to tell people how great my previous marriage was. What a great guy he was. How things were awesome. But when things were truly awesome. I wasn't pining for some guy I met a long time ago. And when things went south in my first marriage well that's when I started running through all the "ones that got away" in my life. That's when I wondered what happened to my first boyfriend to the boy who proposed to me when I was in high school etc. The crappier things were between my husband and I the more I was looking to supplement my daydream life with snippets of romance wherever I could find them. Heck. I tried to find my fourth grade boyfriend on Google. Honestly if your husband is truly your best friend if your relationship is awesome. I'd do your best to focus on that. Think about what made that wonderful in the first place and work on it. But if you're not being entirely honest with yourself about your marriage well this unrequited flame thing may be the excuse you're grabbing at because you're not happy. Only you know that for sure. And on a totally separate note yes chances are you'd be just as dissatisfied with your college love as you are with the husband. But after my divorce. I married my best friend from college. 13 years to the day we met. And he's still as awesome. So no one can say for sure what's in your heart what you should do. Especially us strangers out here on das interwebben posted by at on November 30. 2007 []

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Apparently James Flynn and Charles Murray undergo had another public debate about black/white IQ. Flynn is the only Leftist who is capable of sustaining an informed debate on the matter (people like and are off with the fairies). There was another debate between Flynn and Murray. The report of the latest debate is by who is as cautious and polite as ever. It is really sad to hear that Flynn is still leaning heavily on the old Eyferth study. Flynn himself knows the problems of generalizing from that study and I point them out with my usual brutal frankness. Flynn is a perfectly competent IQ researcher so why he clings to something so unhelpful to his case is quite a mystery. It must just be that curious Leftist inability to cope with the world as it is. In Flynn's case it is denial on a pathological scale. If anything the Eyferth study shows the central role of genetics in IQ. The chew over open that the children of color American GIs and white women had similar IQs to whites. But blacks at the time had to pass the same IQ test as whites to get into the army. So what the study shows is that what IQ tests evaluate for is genetically transmitted! And it shows that it was genetically transmitted AMONG BLACKS! Nasty! Putting it another way it shows that only a subset of blacks especially selected by IQ tests will get results similar to whites. Why Flynn thinks that study helps his case is rather a mystery. It does alter him look like some choose of mental case. It might be worth noting that Leftists themselves are than are conservatives. The other study mentioned by Derb is the Ogbu ("Shaker Heights") study. color researcher Ogbu found that the children of middle class blacks did not do as well at school as the children of middle categorise whites. Ogbu himself attributed that to an anti-intellectual culture among blacks and there is no doubt that such a grow exists. A more straightforward explanation of his findings however is that affirmative action makes it easy for blacks of only add up ability to go into the middle categorise whereas whites have to be above-average to get there. So the children simply reflect the genetic endowment of their parents. There is also a statistical effect known as regression to the mean that could be at work in the Ogbu study. The effect says that parents who are exceptional within their group ordain IN GENERAL undergo less exceptional children. That regression to the mean effect has always been a bit of a teeth-grinder for me in fact. It has always had me wondering about how bright my son would move out to be. His undergo allayed such doubts rather convincingly however. compose:Eyferth. K. (1961). Leistungenverchiedener Gruppen von Besatzungskindern im Hamburg Wechsler Intelligenztest fuer Kinder (HAWIK). Archiv fuer die gesamte Psychologie. 1 13. 222 241.(For more postings from me see and. My Home Pages are or or. Email me (John Ray) .)

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The name “” is known by almost everyone who follows free speech issues. Journalist 赵京 aka “An Ti” became internationally famous when Microsoft blocked his Chinese-language politics blog hosted on their Spaces service. Before he became well-known as a blogger. Anti worked as a researcher in the Beijing bureau of the New York Times. He was - very briefly - a Chinese correspondent in Baghdad during the Iraq war but had to leave when the newspaper he worked for was shut drink by the government. He’s now and is studying the question of how blogs and mainstream media have interacted in different countries. Anti recently returned from Germany where he served on the jury of the Best of the Blogs which gave him an opportunity to think about the role of blogs in different societies. He offers two reasons why blogs have social impacts: He mentions that there are lots of projects trying to monitor China by following internet news - Global Voices. China Media Project new projects at Hong Kong University. In 2004 and 2005 it made sense to follow blogs to find this “sharp news”. But since 2006 most of the interesting and dissenting news is coming from chat rooms. 2004 and 2005 he tells us were the “golden years” for the Chinese blogosphere… and they’re over now. The golden age began with where she began detailing her encounters with various men in late 2003 to the surprise and tittilation of the general public. It ended he believes with the blockage of his blog by Microsoft in late 2005. “The government can hold back every aspect of speech via keyword censorship firewalls and self-censorship.” So the Chinese internet has gone “back to the old years” and chat rooms have returned to importance. Chatrooms have existed in China since 1998 and they’re popular venues for spreading “sharp news”. (Talking with Anti before his talk he mentioned that he used to post articles to dozens of chat rooms switching from one to another quickly turning a one-to-one medium into a broadcast.) Email is also incredibly important as a space for disseminating political information. Since the introduction of email in China - which Anti says became widespread in 1996 - mailing lists became incredibly important often used as a lay to trade “secret information about politics and religion.” These mailing lists he points out connect elites not the mainstream. “We’re making.

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For you fans of geosociological phenomena my mother’s home is the nexus of Ozark kitsch and that principle of Newtonian physics that declares “Nature abhors a vacuum.” Every horizontal lay and an impressive percentage of the vertical planes are packed of magazines books toys food plants ceramics linens doodads gadgets widgets and on and on – and on and on and on and on … . One consequence of this accumulating crowd is that my parents’ retirement cabin has achieved a profound astronomical scale density which at the current evaluate of change magnitude will sometime in June or July 2019 result in the transformation of the southwest corner of the basement into the first documented home-grown specimen of antimatter. The shot selection was driven by impulse and whim so not all the items on all the walls are displayed. Moreover. I lacked the fortitude to explore the loft of the accommodate its closets the store or the outbuilding that previously housed my parents’ RV all of which now serve as repositories for still more miscellanea. 1. Almost all the multitudinous items were collected in less than three years. Those pieces lining the confine’s walls shelves mantles and tables (and those stored in boxes and chests) belonged to someone else prior to 1988 the year my parents moved into the house where my mother now lives. In fact the walls of our family home at least prior to my departure to medical school were downright austere. The only interruptions to the panels of off-white hit smooth beige sand beige medium beige tan light tan tan buff buff tan golden beige tawny beige and saffron beige were the obligatory portrait of Jesus Most of the collectibles were purchased by my mother and dad at local estate sales for a dollar or two (I bequeath my folks discussing a length whether a spinning wheel they coveted would warrant going as high as unprecedented $20 bid). It turns out that almost nothing was added to these collections after my father died in 1991. 2. The collection is semi-kinda-sorta-organized. After cleaning the newly purchased items my father would then attach them in the displace mom selected. While similar items were placed together it was of cover impossible to evaluate for example exactly how many meat grinders the would end up in the collection. During the same time that the set of meat grinders were growing other items (e g. oil lamps cover churns wrenches. … ) were also being mounted on the available wall space. The process was not unlike playing a huge Tetris bet rearranging furniture tools and implements randomly falling onto the walls of a accommodate into similar groups. Consequently most of those meat grinders are in one batch in a specific area of the wall but another smaller group is located across the room. 3. My exploration was carried out under arduous if not treacherous conditions. Some of the photographs are suboptimal because come up. I’m a suboptimal photographer but others suffered because of insufficient lighten (the consequence of an darken day and the lack of windows in some rooms) and still others are distorted because the the masses of random pieces and detritus that fill the floors of some areas (e g. the loft) forced me to injure some photos at radically acute and obtuse angles. I intend to create these photos beginning tomorrow (or as soon as I can travel to a place with decent internet access) and extending over the next two or three weeks. Most of the delay in bringing these online has to do with the be to edit many of the shots to bring out the dilate or increase the clarity. None of the editing is directed toward changing the look of an item. I undergo on a few occasions removed a distraction; the example that comes to object is eliminating a set of wind chimes constructed from psychedelic colored chunks of stained glass that intruded into an otherwise elegant composition of hand tools. I anticipate grouping the items by the dwell in which they are open so all the articles found in the bedroom for example ordain be found together. In many cases the same category of items ordain be open in more than one room. Some items may be shown more than once. An oil lamp might for dilate be photographed as move of a group and also alone in close-up to display the details of its create by mental act. Some of these items will undergo also been featured in the earlier photographs in.

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I am a former Hilltop staff writer. No. I was not put on leave temporarily suspended indefinitely suspended fired or “white-listed” (not allowed to create verbally for a new publication because an author’s writing was slanderous libelous or in other words unethical). I quit - I gave up the one thing I like and my job at the newspaper that mattered to me the most because I don’t accept that The Hilltop managerial staff would have my back if I wrote a controversial or otherwise publicly reputation shattering news story feature or column in. The Hilltop is the only daily student run black newspaper in the U. S. a shining standard pioneer and a reverential and humbling factor in many Howard journalists careers when job recruiters see that they have worked under The Hilltop management. Founded in 1924 by and Louis Eugene King the Hilltop as a newspaper was grounded in being the color community’s way of checking in on what issues permutate our ever-controversial race. The Hilltop newspaper is the voice of the student body as construe on everyday’s front summon and today is read by nearly 30,000 populate easily both online and in print. I thought about forming an anti-Hilltop mighty morphng power coalition (something I would have done in high school when I was a bit more radical) of cater writers write editors and photographers against the Hilltop in hopes that the management would see that we feel like they don’t undergo our backs and that they need to be “down for us” or we go - quit. However. I am still in love with the Hilltop. I figure after some conks are straightened some responsibilities addressed and some balls grown the newspaper may be brought back to its original status of color divinity. On November 20. 2007. Kailyn Hart wrote a libelous (slanderous) article in The Hilltop’s Life & Style divide that unfortunately went unnoticed by write editors and the two L&S divide editors. Danielle Kwateng and Sakita Holley. It was published and read by those 30,000+ people I mentioned before. Kailyn was attacked for her writing via email telecommunicate and many while The Hilltop staff has once again been targeted as half-assing their writing and editing. As a prove. Kailyn Hart was white-listed ontop of being publicly humiliated the of Kailyn’s story was erased the Hilltop managerial cater is investigating which write editors were on duty and Sakita Holley (who was the editor in the newsroom the night before and who happens to be a friend of mine) was “suspended indefinitely,” according to the Nov. 28 column written by Hilltop ombudsman. Janelle Jolley. First. I hold no qualms with the managerial staff of The Hilltop. They’re people first then student journalists. Wonderful populate and wonderful journalists sweet role models at that. Secondly however. Sakita Holley resigned because she was outed moreover used as a scapegoat in Janelle Jolley’s column. Which leads me to the third; Janellle Jolley said that she did not create verbally those words - “Sakita Holley has been suspended indefinitely” - in her column and that someone else wrote them. Fourth the managerial staff ordain not publish Sakita Holley’s perspective in The Hilltop (attached below). A block ad on today’s (and pretty much every day’s) E&P/Op-Ed page say “Don’t like something we said on this page? Submit your own perspective to www thehilltoponline com! Click on the “Letters to the Editor” link! Or refer a guest essay for the Friday Op-Ed page!” Today’s perspective was by Grace Salvant; she reflects on the semester and easing into the Christmas vacation coming up. Not to bash on Grace because she’s a really alter person but WHY. MANAGERS did you create this? In comparison to the real dilemma that is being covered up. Grace’s perspective was irrelevant and definitely could be saved for next week. Why can’t Sakita’s perspective be published? The two other managers didn’t create verbally it they say leaving the Editor-In-Chief to be the only one to make the necessary PUBLIC and IN PRINT apology to readers and to Sakita Holley for putting her (and only her) on blast and for potentially ruining her strike and good standing with future job recruiters and Howard University community members. On Wednesday. November 28. 2007. The Hilltop took another attempt at performing their own crisis communications in relation to a controversial article that ran titled. “College Students More Likely to investigate Sexually.” The first act was a well-written disclaimer that appeared on Tuesday. November 27. 2007. You would evaluate that would have been the end of it but it was not. Management decided that it would be a good idea to publicly use a scapegoat—which in this case happens to be Deputy Life & call Editor Sakita Holley—when in actuality the accuse lies with more than one staffer. In an effort not to compete the victim role. Miss Holley fully takes responsibility for her actions as the Editor who placed that story on the summon and allowed it to run. However she can’t dismiss the fact that the Senior Life & call editor admitted to the editor-in-chief that this whole situation was her fault because she assigned collected and edited the aforementioned story and forwarded it to Miss Holley for publishing on Monday. November 19. 2007. Which in turn led Miss Holley to believe that the bind had been properly sourced and reviewed. Should desire Holley and the copy editors undergo done a thorough examination of the story for their own clarity? Absolutely. When referring to the anonymity of some of the sources quoted in the story it is important to note that this was approved by none other than The Hilltop’s editor-in-chief who believed that a story about one’s sexuality would be grounds for such practices. Moving send. The Hilltop should work on being more transparent by allowing the public to understand how things really work and staffers particularly senior management should go up to the coat and act responsibility for their actions. The journalism world is greatly based on credibility and when that is compromised actions must be taken to a certain degree. Writing a column or a disclaimer for that matter where you out a colleague that was just one of the many persons involved with the final decision in this situation is unprofessional and tactless. Up until this inform. Sakita Holley has enjoyed working for The Hilltop. She has contributed immensely to the creativity and in her words. ‘revival’ of the Life & call section. With her vast be of contacts in the public relations industry she has been able to secure celebrity interviews movie/product screenings and provide innovative story ideas for the section. In the future she hopes that the Life & Style section continues to thrive and has high expectations of her successor.

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I am comfort receiving straggler comments on 9-11 and each time I see or hear about it. I feel a pain. I shouldn't because at first look my family was spared the loss of a loved one or friend that day. However. I do. Maybe what was lost that day to me was innocence that our country was safe from the vile acts of criminals in such a large capacity. My heart hurt so deeply for what was lost that day. My tears ran deep and desire when I was finally able to shed them after the chaos and confusion of that time settled. I cried for the families and friends the stories upon stories that I faced off to and prayed oh how I prayed. I also prayed for those that were victims after the attacks and were wrongfully maimed or killed because they wore a different skin alter. I also winced each time I heard someone alter cat calls about the towel heads because it showed a lack of understanding on their move and ignorance. I have a story to tell about that day but mine was not what I would label remarkable by any means. However for whatever small move we played in the healing of that day - I do desire what I saw on how we rallied together to give support and comfort to one another in this time where it could of torn populate apart. I also treasured how kind people were to one another in the days that followed. People were more giving of the little things in life.. parking spaces a place in line support a grimace you were greeted with manners instead of rudeness.. and today I wonder where did we go? We're back to being bunco with one another rude selfish behaviors. Did we not learn that life is short and it is up to us to make it sweet? I evaluate if I learned anything that day it takes a whole lot less energy to work together than it does to work apart. I grew up and was taught TQM back in the 80s remember the lessons of Lee Ioccao (sp?) and it has stayed with me since. I undergo always tried to be a Team player and have little patience for those that do not. As such. I am going to have a conversation with someone very soon that I see is a wrecking roll to our organization. She either needs to change her attitudeor needs to leave. It is not going to be a pretty conversation because she is a strong person and hates as much as I do to be called to assign but sometimes it is a necessity. She can either act what I say and use it to become more positive or she can act the low road and it will be to her own demise. I'm tired of playing games with her and its about time someone says something. So there lol. Anyhow. I experience I undergo not been around much but I've been very busy at work and school. I will catch up with the journals and construe them -- probably in October lol. I hope everyone is well in the meantime if something is really serious going on its probably best to drop me an telecommunicate. Adios for now! I experience how you feeling about being work. act your measure with you since sometimes we have to rush with everything else. Make sure to make a moment for yourself each day. The peace you'll get is worth it. Even if you just sit in conquer and eat a bangin' piece of dulcify. apply that damn candy for every peanut it's worth! Looking forward to the next affix. Miss B.

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